Sunday

Again I am in the deep depths of pre-work week depression. My new job (not my choice but perhaps my destiney) is not a good place for me. There is no definition to my position and nothing where I can actually take the lead. It is so incredibly reminiscent of my earliest clerical positions that I marvel at the irony. I worked so hard to move myself into higher levels of responsibility and moved quickly through a graduate degree to make future moves possible. Then suddenly, wham.... I am lost as to what to do to change this moment and after so many years find myself again in tears on Sunday afternoons. Please don't make me go back. Please.